Throwing in the Towel

Never, in my whole life, have I ever thought of giving up.
Never, in my whole life, have I ever thought of stopping – anything – a game, a job, a task, a relationship. Giving up, calling it quits, saying UNCLE.
Until now…..
Never have I ever thought before of taking a failing grade.
Never have I ever thought before of letting someone else finish first – or last in this case.
Never have I ever thought of not getting the top rating, the top grade, the top opinions …
I have trained my whole llife to be successful – that is what we do – right??? We train to be the best we can be. Work hard, do your best all the time, keep your nose to the grindstone – always excell. Be recognized by your peers, look good, act better, do the right thing – do unto others what you would have them do unto you…
In these words is the story of my life. In these words I rise and then I fall – these are words that are meaningless to me now.

I take refuge in the thought that it may be OK sometimes to just stop. Do nothing, care for nothing, be nothing.
That is what I chose for myself tonight – nothing!

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